yea...i havent really been on here much because it reminds me of jen. In fact everything reminds me of jen. I have to pass this beach on the way to the place i eat everyday since we went on our "break" and i have to stop everytime i get a hold of myself. I remember every talk we have ever had there, and everything about that place. One of the reasons that she left me was because i needed to change and she wanted to experience new things. I didnt and still dont know what to say to that. I have changed for her, im jsut waiting for her, and im scared cuz i have to wait 5 months. That is a long time to wait, but im willing to do ti for her. In fact, im willing to basically do anything for her. The thing i am scared about is that she wont come back to me after whatever amount of time she needs. I am scared that she will find someone that she loves more. I know i can love her more then anyone can, and im will to show that to her now. I just am afraid she will never come back and i will be lost. I really do love her, but i know she needs to see other people and i respect that, i am just afraid she wont come back and ill be left alone...in the dust....

Now I am Waiting For You.....James